1 post tagged “emo wedding stuff”

I'm serious. All one of my best friends and my friend's sister, stop it. I don't really know where that freak out came from. I guess it's bc I just feel left out, for some weird and probably pretentious reason. But why do i feel left out? That is the question I'm bringing to the table. I am 21, single, disease free, wear glasses and a minority, i wish that was enough.

This has been bugging me lately, bc Crystal has been asking my advice on wedding shit and it's kinda fun. Not in a bottle rockets and cheap beer way but in a kinda giddy girly kind of way, which is another problem, in and of itself, that i will deal with another time. I just like planning shit out, if anyone every takes a vacation with me, you'll understand. I tend to do that Danny Tanner, I'm anal but fun thing.

Eric B told me that's the midwestern/biblebelt thinger that has entered my mind. I mean, There are alot of cool, swinging and awesome people living in the early to mid 30s partying up and working and staying out late at cool bars in their respective metropolitan cities and they seem to be doing alright. Not everyone needs to be barefoot and preggers by 25, right?

I think two ideals of mine are colliding and my sanity/loneliness isn't winning. I have in one corner, the idea of marriage and being in love from a Oklahoma/baptist perspective that I was sorta brought up on bc my parents met in high school and got married and had me. In the other corner, I have the desire to be a big city person; a la Chicago, Boston and New York. That mentality of life appears to be like an episode of Friends, working at mi job and going out to my favorite dive bar or my fav rock club or if i am feeling fruity, my fav dance club.

That sounds like fun but I can't have one with another, you know?  Course, this all would matter if I was actually dating someone and actually dealing with the ramifications of being head over heels for that fine lady i will/have met. In the end, all this didn't matter.