I have alot to say but I don't want to write about it right now. I'm stupidly
poor right now. After paying rent and not even counting other bills, I'm uber
poor. We're moving to a different apartment within our current apartment complex
and I just thought it be easier than moving out but it's just as difficult in
different ways. Honestly, I just don't make enough money to live here without
college loans and scholarships.
I was doing really good with money,
managing it properly and budgeting and shit but now that rent encompasses more
than 45% of what I pull down a month, it makes things a little tight. I've had
to help out Gary a couple of times and that bothered me a little bit but Gary is
one of two people I would lend money to right now and I enjoy not being
homeless.
I seriously just want to graduate now and move. I love my
friends here but I feel it's going to be easier than moving here because I'm
older and I know for sure that the friends I have now, will stay my friends for
a long time. The kind of friends where I bend over backwards to be at their
wedding and other important shit.
I guess I can finally declare myself an Adult now, with a capital A. While it does feel good to see the progress I have made from a year ago (Living in my parent's house working for my dad after flunking out of college) it's not getting any easier like I wish it was. I guess it won't get easy until I have a real Job using real Talent I have (I know I got alot of that).
I guess till then, It'll be like this. I'm not trying to sound mopey or self-pity, i'm just trying to have a dialogue of what's going on with me and how I feel about it. Except my girl troubles, everyone knows about that and I can't go into those without a protected post.
I wanna grow a beard but i can't. The laws of the universe and my genetics won't allow such a thing to happen. I can't control it, the only thing I can do is not shave and see if anything not ugly comes out of it. I think a beard would look good on me but it won't, i'll just look like a lumberjack or a sketch character like that. But I still wanna do it.
That's life.
(JEREMY and CHARCY walk into the apartment and see JONAS, nursing a Brandy and Ginger Ale while a variety of guns sit on their coffee table, JONAS has no pants on)
JONAS
Uhhhhhhh. What’s up guys? How was dinner? You like the barbecue? I liked the brisket, you can never go wrong with brisket
(CHARCY stares at JEREMY then JONAS and back at JEREMY)
JEREMY
Charcy. Don’t freak out, I can explain everything. It might be a little weird but I can make sense of this, except why he’s wearing no pants. (SIGH) Dude, come on, you knew we were coming home about this time, not even sweat pants for us?
CHARCY
I’m just wondering why he would do that in his Spongebobs. It seems like an activity that would require pants.
(CHARCY walks in and makes herself a drink while JEREMY follows her in and shuts the door)
JONAS
Do I need a reason to be wearing pants? It is after all my apartment also.
CHARCY
It just seems a little reckless, that’s all. One mistake and BAM, shot in leg.
JONAS
Well, it would still go through my leg with a pair of jeans, that’s how guns work Charc.
CHARCY
Fine, enough talk of your pantlessness. Where did you get those guns?
JONAS
Target, next to the Linens.
CHARCY
Alright fag, don’t tell me.
JEREMY
So you aren’t too freaked out by this?
CHARCY
I might be, I don’t know……. Maybe? I’m alot more drunk than I lead on to be right now.
JONAS
And you continue to drink, still.
CHARCY
Hey, Underpants Queen, I think I earned it. I didn’t expect for you to be cleaning a… what is that
(CHARCY walks over to the coffee table, bends over and looks)
a rifle, a shotty and handguns, when I walked in that door)
JONAS
1st off, don’t ever say shotty, it makes you look fucking retarded, just say shotgun. 2nd off, I like my boxers you whore, they were a gift.
CHARCY
Fine… Jeez… You need to calm down slut.
JONAS
I’m not a slut you cunt.
JEREMY
Can I talk now?
CHARCY
Sure.
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The question still stands though, why do we drink/binge/overindulge/ go on drunken benders when we know it could lead to possible death, injury, assault, sexual abuse, unsafe sex, unwanted sex, academic problems, health problems/suicide attempts, drunk driving, vandalism, property damage and unwanted pregnancies?
This year, it's eleven songs because I couldn't bare to take anyone of these off the top. A lot of this stuff came out towards the beginning of the year because I had alot more free time to scour the web. Anyways, let's get to the countdown.
1. Pull Shapes - The Pipettes
2. My Love - Justin Timberlake
3. Hard To Concentrate - Red Hot Chili Peppers
4. Fidelity - Regina Spektor
5. Maneater - Nelly Furtado
6. Rise Up With Fists - Jenny Lewis with the Watson Twins
7. Sweet Temptation - Lillix
8. Welcome To The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance
9. God's Gonna Cut You Down - Johnny Cash
10. Bad Education - Tilly & The Wall
11. Turn Into - The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
The Runners Up:
How To Save A Life - The Fray
Over and Over – Hot Chip
Push Push (Baby Lightening) - Bang Camaro
I Just Wanna See The Boy Happy - Morrissey
Deadwood - Pretty Dirty Things
Free Radicals - The Flaming Lips
When The Sun Goes Down - The Artic Monkeys
Smiley Faces - Gnarls Barkley
Why Do I Keep Counting - The Killers
Never Went To Church - The Streets
Omaha – Tapes N’ Tapes
Charlie – Red Hot Chili Peppers
What You Know – T.I.
