I'm sitting at my aunt's table in Phoenix, well, north Phoenix. I'm pratically in Flagstaff at this point, she lives in Athenem (which i just spelt wrong). But it's way up on I-17 and even above a prison.
It's in a pre-planned community and it's kinda nice and kinda scary. That everything you would actually need to live could be within 2 miles of yourself is kinda comforting but reminds me of those scary movies we watched in Pop Culture about the urbanization of America and how it'll kill us.
I've spent alot of time with my family, mostly in cramped areas and we are all still alive, so that is good.
I'm writing this on dad's iBook G4 he borrowed from and dammnit, makes me want a laptop. It's the new Typewritter. And I am pretty sure I would look cool should i desire a cup of coffee and have this with me, which is really naracastic but I tend to be around that kind of gal alot.
It's really warm here also. Like 60's and i was kinda expecting it but I could wear shorts and be fine, which is in sharp contrast to the winter wonderland of durango.
I should also state that yes, i passed all my classes. GPA wasn't as good as I wish it was but dammnit, i'm going to finish now.
From here i'll end up back at my g'rents and then on saturday, leave back for Oklahoma. Which is too bad bc Crystal and i wanted to go clubbing because she needs to reminded that she is not a old lady. *dig*
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I had a nightmare Wednesday night. This guy was trying to kill my cousins and i had to fight him through layers of this office building until we got into the basement, where he was about to stab my cousins with this sword he found in the basement and then I found a gun and shot the fuck out of his head.
That is in sharp contrast to the dream I had last night. I was in a giant screening room, with Aaron Sorkin doling out parts in his Opera he written called Emotive and it featured all my friends as they were in High School. Then i went to the restroom and it had a bomb dispensing unit in it and it was malfunctioning.
It's been a weird. week.
You could never never make me cry.
You could never let me down.
You could never not smile big enough.
You could never stop making me feel like a man.
We (My Roomies and i) were at the bar last weekend and we got into a discussion about lists compromised of certain categories in pop culture. These lists reflected our own intuition and knowledge of the past.
These are those lists:
Top 3 Most Important Albums in the last 20 years:
3. The Chronic by Dr. Dre
2. Dookie by Green Day
1. Ok Computer by Radiohead
3 Top Albums of all time was here but i'm not repeating due to it's genericness
Top 3 action films ever
3. Aliens
2. The Matrix
1. Die Hard
Then Zack and I had a talk on the way home about the top 3 most historical albums of the 90's
3. In Utero by Nirvana
2. Hit Me Baby One More Time by Britney Spears
1. The Chronic by Dr. Dre (I know I'm repeating)
All bar conversations need to be like that.
Show us something unbelievable.
one of those days
I totally didn't go to class this morning. I had a hard time drinking liquid due to my throat kinda locking up. My entire body aches when I try and consume food,
which has mostly consisted of bean burritos for about a week now (10 for $2.50!).
When I try and eat something, it sets off a chain reaction of ouchieness (i sound like a 12 year old) that starts with my ears hurting and makes me close my eyes and give a facial reaction reminiscent of me consuming something sour or tart.
But school is almost over, which i'll be glad, So i can get my hands on Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess.
I've seen Zack play it alot lately and I'm blown away. I'm going to start playing Gears of War on Hardcore difficulty and i'm slowly but surely making progress with Guitar Hero 2 on Hard.
I think once finals are over i'll be ok. Well, i'm ok know. Just more comfortable knowing i'll be here next semster and be able to finally graduate.
I gotta go warm my car up before i leave for class because there's fucking snow everywhere.
Maybe You're Right Barenaked Ladies
Stromata Charlotte Martin
Goodbye My Lover (Radio Version) James Blunt
Into The Ocean Blue October
When Your Heart Stops Beating +44
Harrowdown Hill Thom Yorke
Why Do I Keep Counting The Killers
Do U Wanna Ride (Feat. John Legend) (Produced By Kanye West) Jay-Z
9 Crimes Damien Rice
Window In The Skies U2
Face Down The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Mama My Chemical Romance
Maybe You're Right Barenaked Ladies
Stromata Charlotte Martin
Goodbye My Lover (Radio Version) James Blunt
Into The Ocean Blue October
When Your Heart Stops Beating +44
Harrowdown Hill Thom Yorke
Why Do I Keep Counting The Killers
Do U Wanna Ride (Feat. John Legend) Jay-Z
9 Crimes Damien Rice
Window In The Skies U2
Face Down The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Mama My Chemical Romance
(Another Song) All Over Again Justin Timberlake
- Music:Charlotte Martin - Stromata
You can do the colorgenics test at this address now. Basically, i'm lazy now and letting the ability to click on 8 colored squares do the thinking, so i don't have to.
You are a very emotional and sensitive individual. Your life and love of life is dominated by your emotions - you have great feeling towards your fellow man and you are always full of enthusiasm but be careful, you tend to let your heart rule your head and this being so, you could be easily hurt - as perhaps you may have indeed been hurt in the past.
You don't really give in. You follow your beliefs and ideals to the bitter end. You are the personification of stubbornness and whatever may transpire, right or wrong, you refuse to compromise or make concessions.
You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.
Stresses resulting from a recent disappointment have led to considerable trepidation. It would seem that there seems to be so much left undone. Everything surrounds you with that air of uncertainty. You badly need to feel a sense of security and whatever it takes to protect you against further disappointment. At this particular time you doubt that things could be any better in the future but you are sticking to your guns and refusing to take advice from any source.
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety and you are distressed by the lack of any close and understanding relationships. You feel you are not appreciated by those who matter to you. You are attempting to escape into a world on which you can relax and feel at ease.
